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My birthday is in a few days, and I am a little excited! Okay, maybe a lot excited. I am not really sure why. Birthdays for me are like the "new year" for everyone else. I look back on the year, and forward to the next one, and I feel so excited for what could be!

I feel God all around me. Its funny, because a new devotional I started talked about the burning bush. And in the prayer prompt it said to ask God to reveal himself to you in all new ways, in ways He never has before. I felt almost selfish, as I have been asking God for so much these days. But then it occurred to me, what if He is just waiting for me to want to experience Him in ways He has yet to show me? What if He is just waiting to give me one hundred more ways to fall in love with Him? So I asked, and I feel Him. Its remarkable how content and complete I feel. It is so nice to be in the place where you feel like nothing is missing. I wish I could explain it better, because I know so many people don't understand. But when you love God, and try to live for God (try being the imperative word there :o) He is just always there. Every minute, every second, every situation and every circumstance, He is there. When you start noticing Him, when you start feeling Him all around you, when you start experiencing what its like to have a relationship with the Lord...well, its far better than you can ever imagine. Just fyi.

(side note: although I am very open about my faith, I feel like our faith belongs to us. Everyone has a right to their own, and it is a very personal and intimate part of our lives. I have never really felt compelled to...um...witness, per se. My life is certainly not the pretty Christian walk that I was told I should follow. So I can't even say that I lead by example. All I can be sure of is that God saves me every single day. He is something that I can always count on, absolutely, no matter what. He fills a place inside of me that can not be filled in any other way. From time to time, it just bubbles over. Like in this post. Its bubbling. I wish Christianity could shed its stereotypes, that it wasn't synonymous with Religion. I wish the Bible wasn't used to hurt people or to build walls or manipulate hearts. I wish there was a way to share without worrying that I am offending anyone. If there was a way to cure cancer and I knew it, I would tell the world. So if God has saved me, and He is the reason I am even still alive- its safe to say I will always be glad to share with anyone who will listen. There is only one stipulation- leave all your stereotypes and preconceived notions at the door. Because nothing about me, or my life, or my God, fits into any box. I'm just saying...so apparently this is a rather long side note. But That's all folks!!!)

I hope you all have a lovely weekend!!!